04-07-2008, 05:56 AM
Hi everyone.
Have any of you suffered a loss of faith lately? I have. I must admit to now being a lot more sceptical than ever before. I've lost a lot of my faith in the last year or so.
It's terrible to say, but the more I think about everything, the more I see little reason to worship God. I definitely believe God exists but I feel no desire to reach out and praise him anymore, especially when it is obvious that there is no true religion on earth, not even the JW's.
It makes no sense to me anymore to love and praise a being that has been totally aloof for so many centuries. All the wickedness and suffering and evil and injustice - we cannot even begin to imagine the horror and atrocities. Where is the evidence of God's love, mercy and justice when he has done nothing to display these qualities? All we have seen is evidence of his awesome power in creating everything and occasionally destroying groups of people in far ancient times. If there is some big universal court case where the issues of universal sovereignty is being decided and the evidence is being collected and weighed up, there where is the evidence in the last two thousand years of God showing love, justice and mercy to his human children? I dont see any.
To me, love is an active, living thing. We can only love that which loves us, in the present tense, not something that is written in ancient tomes written thousands of years ago where we do not even have the original writings. Ask yourself: could you truly, really love a parent that abandoned you and your young siblings as a young child and then stood by and did nothing when your siblings were abused and killed, when that parent had it in their power to stop the abuse and suffering, yet chose not to? The Society uses an illustration about how no normal parent would punish a child who played with fire by holding their hand for ages over a hot stove element. Yet we are expected to believe that this is more or less what Jehovah is doing with the human family - we are puppets in some monstrous legal experiment where billions of humans must suffer and suffer deprivation and misery of every kind to satisfy God's standards of 'justice' and 'evidence' in some 'court case'? What judge would ever demand such a horrible standard of evidence to prove some point.
So it is no longer rational to me to reach out and praise a being based on ancient reputations. I can only now feel a numb mental acknowledgement of his existence and power. It is completely irrational to sing and praise and pray to and worship him, when he has done absolutely nothing for mankind for 2,000 years. If you were God, would you expect every new generation to totally kowtow to you when you've done nothing for countless centuries. If you were incredibly insecure or psychotic you would.
If and when Jesus returns to fix up this horrible planet, then and only then will I feel joy and love for God again. Just like in a marriage, there must be action, evidence, proof of your love for each other. In fact, any human relationship of any kind will soon die unless there is ongoing two-way communication, appreciation, expressions of affection, etc. That is the way God has made us and we are in his image. Hence it is unnatural and unreasonable for God to demand such a high standard of devotion and love from us without more from him first, after thousands of years of aloofness.
The Society uses an illustration about baptism you may be familiar with. It says that if someone just keeps saying they love God over and over but fails to dedicate themselves to them, then it is equivalent to a young man courting a young women, and the man keeps saying to her "I love you, I love you" but until he actually committs to her and marries her, his words are hollow.
I feel the same about God now. All we have is old writings from 2,000-4,000 years old that say "I love you, I love you" but there has been nothing, no words, no actions, for the last 2,000 years. What reasonable person would still deeply 'love' a former lover who abandoned them years and years ago and never communicated, despite all the best ongoing efforts of the other lover to reach out. That love would soon die.
To repeat the poing: it is just not rational to say you really, truly, deeply LOVE a person or personality based on reputation, claims, words, but not present action. It is only rational to love God once we see him reach out to the human family again and show us again that he really loves us and cares for us, because for thousands of years there has been nothing but silence.
I believe miracles are possible, because I believe in God. But I also feel it is not rational to believe in the miracles of the bible when we have seen no miracles for two thousand years and the reports of them in scripture are just so ancient.
Thomas Paine was one of the first to point out that outrageous claims require outrageous proof. It is not rational to believe in claims of outrageous events occuring thousands of years ago.
Even the apostle Thomas was sceptical and would not believe the resurrection until he had seen physical proof with his own eyes. Honestly, how are we supposed to be any less sceptical today and believe without the same proof that Thomas expected, a man who walked with and knew Jesus. I feel like Thomas now.
If Jesus was prepared to provide the outrageous proof that Thomas reasonably and rationally expected, then we have a reasonable expectation to have the same proof today. That proof could only be
if and when Jesus returns and shows his miraculous power. Until then, how can any rational person be blamed for suspending their believe and faith?
Christians have no trouble applying healthy skepticism to the miracles of Islam, or to the "historical" visit between Joseph Smith and the angel Moroni. Why should Christians treat their own outrageous claims any differently? Why should someone who was not there be any more eager to believe than doubting Thomas, who lived during that time, or the other disciples who said that the women's news from the tomb "seemed to them as idle tales, and they believed them not" (Luke 24:11)?
Paine also points out that everything in the bible is hearsay. For example, the message at the tomb took this path, at minimum, before it got to our eyes: God, angel(s), Mary, disciples, Gospel writers, copyists, translators.
In any event, the Gospels are all anonymous and we have no original versions. How can you not have a measure of scepticism in the light of all this?
There was a 30 to 50 year gap between Jesus death and before the first Pauline letters and gospel accounts were recorded in writing - while that is probably too short a time for mythological folklore to have developed wholesale, it is still plenty of time for elaborations, allegory, and exaggeration to have crept in before pen went to paper.
For the same reason most people don't believe in UFOs, even though there are thousands of 'eyewitnesses' claiming to have seen them, what rational reason could there be for completely believing in the miracles recorded in ancient, second-hand texts. I see less and less.
I'm at a position now in my life where it will take a miracle for my faith and love for God to be restored. God has not even bothered to ensure that a religion with millions of devotees who sincerely worship him and his very name has been kept free from numerous falsehoods, shonky theology and downright rotten, harmful policies and practices (I'm talking about the JW's of course). So if Jehovah has not bothered to intervene, even in the smallest of ways, why should I bother anymore?
What is the point in all this effort, all this agonizing over interpretations and words written so, so long ago in the mists of time? Just live a normal, healthy, balanced, life with respect for your neighbour and the planet, not doing any harm to yourself or neighbour. I leave my destiny and the fate of the planet and billions of mankind in Jesus and God's hands. They have the power, and if God truly is a god of love and mercy, then he needs to show the human family that. He cannot claim to be a God of justice unless he provides that outrageous proof of the bible's outrageous claims. The onus is on Him.
Scattered sheep
Have any of you suffered a loss of faith lately? I have. I must admit to now being a lot more sceptical than ever before. I've lost a lot of my faith in the last year or so.
It's terrible to say, but the more I think about everything, the more I see little reason to worship God. I definitely believe God exists but I feel no desire to reach out and praise him anymore, especially when it is obvious that there is no true religion on earth, not even the JW's.
It makes no sense to me anymore to love and praise a being that has been totally aloof for so many centuries. All the wickedness and suffering and evil and injustice - we cannot even begin to imagine the horror and atrocities. Where is the evidence of God's love, mercy and justice when he has done nothing to display these qualities? All we have seen is evidence of his awesome power in creating everything and occasionally destroying groups of people in far ancient times. If there is some big universal court case where the issues of universal sovereignty is being decided and the evidence is being collected and weighed up, there where is the evidence in the last two thousand years of God showing love, justice and mercy to his human children? I dont see any.
To me, love is an active, living thing. We can only love that which loves us, in the present tense, not something that is written in ancient tomes written thousands of years ago where we do not even have the original writings. Ask yourself: could you truly, really love a parent that abandoned you and your young siblings as a young child and then stood by and did nothing when your siblings were abused and killed, when that parent had it in their power to stop the abuse and suffering, yet chose not to? The Society uses an illustration about how no normal parent would punish a child who played with fire by holding their hand for ages over a hot stove element. Yet we are expected to believe that this is more or less what Jehovah is doing with the human family - we are puppets in some monstrous legal experiment where billions of humans must suffer and suffer deprivation and misery of every kind to satisfy God's standards of 'justice' and 'evidence' in some 'court case'? What judge would ever demand such a horrible standard of evidence to prove some point.
So it is no longer rational to me to reach out and praise a being based on ancient reputations. I can only now feel a numb mental acknowledgement of his existence and power. It is completely irrational to sing and praise and pray to and worship him, when he has done absolutely nothing for mankind for 2,000 years. If you were God, would you expect every new generation to totally kowtow to you when you've done nothing for countless centuries. If you were incredibly insecure or psychotic you would.
If and when Jesus returns to fix up this horrible planet, then and only then will I feel joy and love for God again. Just like in a marriage, there must be action, evidence, proof of your love for each other. In fact, any human relationship of any kind will soon die unless there is ongoing two-way communication, appreciation, expressions of affection, etc. That is the way God has made us and we are in his image. Hence it is unnatural and unreasonable for God to demand such a high standard of devotion and love from us without more from him first, after thousands of years of aloofness.
The Society uses an illustration about baptism you may be familiar with. It says that if someone just keeps saying they love God over and over but fails to dedicate themselves to them, then it is equivalent to a young man courting a young women, and the man keeps saying to her "I love you, I love you" but until he actually committs to her and marries her, his words are hollow.
I feel the same about God now. All we have is old writings from 2,000-4,000 years old that say "I love you, I love you" but there has been nothing, no words, no actions, for the last 2,000 years. What reasonable person would still deeply 'love' a former lover who abandoned them years and years ago and never communicated, despite all the best ongoing efforts of the other lover to reach out. That love would soon die.
To repeat the poing: it is just not rational to say you really, truly, deeply LOVE a person or personality based on reputation, claims, words, but not present action. It is only rational to love God once we see him reach out to the human family again and show us again that he really loves us and cares for us, because for thousands of years there has been nothing but silence.
I believe miracles are possible, because I believe in God. But I also feel it is not rational to believe in the miracles of the bible when we have seen no miracles for two thousand years and the reports of them in scripture are just so ancient.
Thomas Paine was one of the first to point out that outrageous claims require outrageous proof. It is not rational to believe in claims of outrageous events occuring thousands of years ago.
Even the apostle Thomas was sceptical and would not believe the resurrection until he had seen physical proof with his own eyes. Honestly, how are we supposed to be any less sceptical today and believe without the same proof that Thomas expected, a man who walked with and knew Jesus. I feel like Thomas now.
If Jesus was prepared to provide the outrageous proof that Thomas reasonably and rationally expected, then we have a reasonable expectation to have the same proof today. That proof could only be
if and when Jesus returns and shows his miraculous power. Until then, how can any rational person be blamed for suspending their believe and faith?
Christians have no trouble applying healthy skepticism to the miracles of Islam, or to the "historical" visit between Joseph Smith and the angel Moroni. Why should Christians treat their own outrageous claims any differently? Why should someone who was not there be any more eager to believe than doubting Thomas, who lived during that time, or the other disciples who said that the women's news from the tomb "seemed to them as idle tales, and they believed them not" (Luke 24:11)?
Paine also points out that everything in the bible is hearsay. For example, the message at the tomb took this path, at minimum, before it got to our eyes: God, angel(s), Mary, disciples, Gospel writers, copyists, translators.
In any event, the Gospels are all anonymous and we have no original versions. How can you not have a measure of scepticism in the light of all this?
There was a 30 to 50 year gap between Jesus death and before the first Pauline letters and gospel accounts were recorded in writing - while that is probably too short a time for mythological folklore to have developed wholesale, it is still plenty of time for elaborations, allegory, and exaggeration to have crept in before pen went to paper.
For the same reason most people don't believe in UFOs, even though there are thousands of 'eyewitnesses' claiming to have seen them, what rational reason could there be for completely believing in the miracles recorded in ancient, second-hand texts. I see less and less.
I'm at a position now in my life where it will take a miracle for my faith and love for God to be restored. God has not even bothered to ensure that a religion with millions of devotees who sincerely worship him and his very name has been kept free from numerous falsehoods, shonky theology and downright rotten, harmful policies and practices (I'm talking about the JW's of course). So if Jehovah has not bothered to intervene, even in the smallest of ways, why should I bother anymore?
What is the point in all this effort, all this agonizing over interpretations and words written so, so long ago in the mists of time? Just live a normal, healthy, balanced, life with respect for your neighbour and the planet, not doing any harm to yourself or neighbour. I leave my destiny and the fate of the planet and billions of mankind in Jesus and God's hands. They have the power, and if God truly is a god of love and mercy, then he needs to show the human family that. He cannot claim to be a God of justice unless he provides that outrageous proof of the bible's outrageous claims. The onus is on Him.
Scattered sheep
, without a doubt this is a journey of many ups and downs. I understand your feelings at this point as do so many --if not all--here, as most feel at a certain point full of deep regrets and even in so many cases doubts. I read a book a couple of years ago called ''The Slumber Of Christianity'' that has made me feel ''this dark night'' may be a normal part of the journey. I know a few years ago when I was at the last assembly I went to the speaker referrenced a scripture on our closeness with God. He said if we wanted to we could ask for God's breath upon our cheek (from the scripture) and we could have that. It really affected me because I Knew I didn't have that. A few weeks later I was at home and thinking about it and simply asked God to make himself that real to me --and that close. I asked for his breath on my cheek. I was feeling pretty lost at that time for assorted reasons. It didn't happen on that day but I will never forget the day--the moment-- I realized it had and it was as tho a big wall had come down between me and God and I could feel his presence as never before. It gave me chills actually--and such an expanding heart. I believe that just as so many before you have and so many who come after you will there is a way to find yourself walking with God again even tho the road looks kind of bleak right now. The daily scripture has been discussing faith now for a few days and I have come to believe for myself there is so much more to faith than we may have ever realized. It lives and expands and it also seems to be affected by what is going on around us and hence the need to always pray for more. Faith is a treasure and a gift from God yet also fragile and strong at the same time. From all you have written over the years and shared with us Scattered Sheep --works which I have not only totally enjoyed but also deeply respected--I believe this is a part of your journey that will soon resolve itself --for I believe with all of my heart that our great God and His son Jesus Christ are a part of yours...
and I simply encourage you to hang on and pray still for the expanding faith that we all need so much and I believe it will be given to you in a brand new way as I also reassure you that you are not alone--- 
Dear brother SS!!
Forgive yourself!
Forgive your Father!
Praise the Lord!
Be in the Present!





) and one of them was Jeremiah, as to me at least, your words reflected his anguish and despair and perhaps even a measure of loss of faith as well ...

) today has also produced something amazing ...
I ALSO now INCLUDE his SON in my prayers ... speaking to HIM and THANKING him and asking him for HIS HELP as well ... and when I began to do this my brother my relationship seemed to GROW and DEEPEN to BOTH Jehovah and Jesus and I DO feel them my brother in my life IN SPITE OF MANY AND MUCH as our dear iso's name so aptly reflects ...
pulls out all the stops to try to get us to doubt and break our faith, hope and love in God and his promises to us ...
... my relationship and belief in my God and his Son!!
... (not that you're a 'child' ... it was an illustration ...





I suspect that's because we have God's mind on matters.
We may not understand everything now, but one day we will!And in that day, justice will prevail! That's God's promise to all of mankind who are sighing and groaning about all the detestable things being done not only in His great name, but also out of sheer hate and greed and a lack of love and empathy for others.