Hello there wasblind my sister and friend ...
Sometimes where life leads us isn't very nice is it ...

but oh how we can learn from it ... both the good as well as the bad ...
For in your sufferings dear sister only think HOW MUCH you are affirmed that you NEED our heavenly Father ... and that you WANT HIM IN YOUR LIFE!!
As to your prayers my sister

... maybe these Scriptures will be a source of comfort to you during your time of upheaval and seeking to reconnect ... although I am SURE you ARE CONNECTED ... you just don't know it yet is all ...

Matt. 6:8 ...
(BBE) So be not like them; because your Father has knowledge of your needs even before you make your requests to him.
(MKJV) Therefore do not be like them, for your Father knows what things you have need of, before you ask Him.
The 'being like them' part is of course those who pray but you only do it out of 'rote' or for 'show' or say the same things over and over without any real meaning ...
Jehovah KNOWS YOUR HEART

dear sis ... and HEARS it beating for Him whether in joy, despair, shame, pain, hope, yearning, confusion, whatever ...
Rom. 8:26 ...
(BBE) And in the same way the Spirit is a help to our feeble hearts: for we are not able to make prayer to God in the right way; but the Spirit puts our desires into words which are not in our power to say;
(CEV) In certain ways we are weak, but the Spirit is here to help us. For example, when we don't know what to pray for, the Spirit prays for us in ways that cannot be put into words.
(Darby) And in like manner the Spirit joins also its help to our weakness; for we do not know what we should pray for as is fitting, but the Spirit itself makes intercession with groanings which cannot be uttered.
(ESV) Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.
And then of course we have the comforting words of
Ps. 139:4 that shows us how much our Father is aware of us ... yes it isn't only the 'hairs on our heads' that he has 'numbered' ... but the words we have yet to express on our lips ...
(DRB) And thou hast foreseen all my ways: for there is no speech in my tongue.
(ESV) Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
(GNB) Even before I speak, you already know what I will say.
(GW) Even before there is a single word on my tongue, you know all about it, LORD.
So, remember that Jehovah thinks of you as we do my dearest sister ...
1Sam. 16:7 ...
7 But Jehovah said to Samuel: “Do not look at his appearance and at the height of his stature, for I have rejected him. For not the way man sees [is the way God sees], because mere man sees what appears to the eyes; but as for Jehovah, he sees what the heart is.”
So if for a time your heart is weighing you down please think about and draw inner strength from
Ps. 34:18 ...
(BBE) The Lord is near the broken-hearted; he is the saviour of those whose spirits are crushed down.
(CEV) The LORD is there to rescue all who are discouraged and have given up hope.
(Darby) Jehovah is nigh to those that are of a broken heart, and saveth them that are of a contrite spirit.
(GNB) The LORD is near to those who are discouraged; he saves those who have lost all hope.
And once you realize just how CLOSE your Father really is to ... that He is not far off from you at all ...
Acts 17:27 ...
(ASV) that they should seek God, if haply they might feel after him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us:
(CEV) God has done all this, so that we will look for him and reach out and find him. He isn't far from any of us,
(ESV) that they should seek God, in the hope that they might feel their way toward him and find him. Yet he is actually not far from each one of us,
Then when you BEGIN TO FEEL his LOVE ...

his CLOSENESS


you can begin to heal

and grow

and feel warm

and strong

...
Then you will also be able to understand how Peter felt and why Christ Jesus said to him at
Luke 32:22 ...
(BBE) But I have made prayer for you, that your faith may not go from you: and when you are turned again, make your brothers strong.
(CEV) But Simon, I have prayed that your faith will be strong. And when you have come back to me, help the others."
(EMTV) But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers."
My dear sister, all the troubles you are experiencing can have some good, just as Peter's did ... in all his troubles and shortcomings ...
He gained insight, understanding, empathy, courage, faith, endurance and a whole host of other good qualities that equipped him to help others in their faith and struggles in life ...
And just as he, so can YOU be there for others ... for US ... as you have been in the past ...
So, BE OF GOOD COURAGE my dear one ...
For the skies are ready to turn blue and the sun shine warm upon you ... all you need to do is have FAITH and BELIEVE ... and it will someday soon PROVE TO BE SO ...!!!

I hope some of these Scriptures and thoughts help you a teensy weensy bit ... and anyone else who may have needed to hear them as well ...
You are and will always be a wonderful part of our spiritual family here at our beautiful cafe my sis ... and don't ya forget it ...!!
Lots and lots of love,

hugs

and kisses

to you ... me ... BR
oh yeah ... PS ... you WILL be in my prayers tonight as you have been all along ...

... just a more specific one on your behalf ...
